שנה חלפה כבר מאז הלך לעולמו אחי היקר יוסי, מצורפת הודעה וכן
דברים שכתבתי לו, לפני שנה לרגל פטירתו.
Dear Beloved Brother, / August, 19th 2016
Today is your Birthday and I had hoped with all my heart, that on this day I would be able to hug and wish you a Happy Birthday with all the best that life can offer.
My original plan was really to come now in August, to see you and celebrate together our birthdays, but it did not happen that way. I have visited with you last November. We had good time and you were doing well, but deep deep in our hearts we knew that it is not going to be for too long.
This dammed illness does not lose a battle.
The family advised me not to wait for this later date, because your health was deteriorating very rapidly. I came as soon as I could to be with you. Luckily we were together for the last two weeks of your life. It was so sad and heart breaking to see you so fragile and fading away. I cried than and I am still crying now, it is so hard to deal with loosing you too, so soon after Naomi. Naomi passed away on the 22nd of June 2015, a year and one day later, on the 23rd of June 2016, you joined her. 24 years ago, our brother Haim also passed away. It was on June 20th 1992.
So I guess that my………….. never mind.
In four days it will be exactly 60 days since you are gone, it will be the 23rd of August, the day of my birthday, the day that I did plan to be with you, but you did not make it. I am sure you wanted to be here with all of us, but your suffering was over whelming towards the end.
The only condolence, that I am trying to convince myself, is that you are not suffering any longer and that you are up there with most of our family, in a better world, a world that is all good.
The 23rd is going to be a very sad day for me and I don't know how I am going to do it by myself. In the past we celebrated our birthdays together, it happened few times, one of those birthdays we celebrated in Yakima, Washington, after visiting the Columbia glacier. It was a dinner in a Chinese restaurant. Another time was in your backyard, which at that time you gave me the golden medallion,
"To Yoram with love, Yosi"
I sure cherish it and wear it all the time, thank you again.
As far as celebrating my birthday, it is not going to be so easy, but I will try my best.
I am sure that Dad, Mom, Haim, Gail, Naomi and You, will be watching me from above, carrying such a heavy load, all by myself.
Yosi, I love you and miss you all.
Rest in peace dear brother, you could not ask for a better company.